It feels like everytime I open my eyes, I wake up to my own death.
'Ikigai' is a Japanese word which depicts the reason you wake up every morning. And no, it doesn't mean alarm. For me, it meant saying a curse word the moment I open my eyes.
After three years of staying away from his family, in a perfect new nest, with enough space and necessities nearby, he still felt caged. He could not love his life and was in a constant fight with his mind over leaving the Rotting nest.